I think I can do this...

Here I am. Right now I am sitting in the Montreal Airport, waiting for my flight to London. I feel myself on the cusp of a grander adventure than the previous adventure before. Going home was amazingly good for me. I needed to see the familiar faces that I loved again, I needed to feel completely comfortable again. I think that is the thing that wears on you after awhile when you abroad. You just want to be comfortable again. And it was so good to hug every single last person that loved me; laugh with them again, and share life with them again for a small time.

But now, I am on my way back to Europe and this time I am alone for awhile. Part of me dreads it. The unexpected-ness of it all makes my stomach churn and makes my hands shake. But then again, I can hardly wait. Because I know that going somewhere alone will bring something out of me that I have never known was inside of me before. Of course I am afraid that something bad will happen, but I am learning that as with all of life, all I can do is hold my breath and jump right in. I am sure that London will be fine. At this point I even know how to get to my hostel just fine. I can do this, I just need to believe in myself.

I have to share my gratitude I have for everyone in my life right now. My parents, my best friend Arri, Robin. Tim, Jeff, Justin, Amanda, Sarah #1, Joni, Kristen, Lindsay-loo-who, and alllllllll of Atlas Greeley. These adventures and this beautiful life that I have been gifted with so graciously has all been because of you. I really don't understand sometimes, I don't understand why I was given this chance of a lifetime. But I have been thinking about it a lot lately. Thinking about how I am going to use every moment I have been given and returning it to those I love and the community I call home. I'm thinking about my future, about who I want to become from this, what I want to learn from this. They are all big ideas I guess, but I just very want this moment in my life to become something so beautiful and productive. And now I am thinking about how I can make this semester abroad different. I want it to be something that challenges me and pushes me beyond my limit and safety zones. It's a lot to think about, but I have a 8 hour flight to London to mull it over.  :)

So, for now, I am on my way! Bon voyage!