Time is running short for me and Europe right now. And I know, it's still more than a month and a half left, but I know that is something that will go in a blink of an eye. I still have a hard time picturing myself anywhere else right now, and going home is beyond me.
I have seen a lot of close friends go through this process and I think I should start through the stages of accepting the thought of going home. Because I have, unfortunately, had a very sour outlook on the idea of going home. It's so hard because I feel like I've been given a year to completely fall in love with another place (and I am deeply in love with it, by the way) and now I have to go back to some kind of uncertainty I do not understand. And it is so hard to translate the experiences, lessons, knowledge, and changes I have gained here. This was not an ordinary experience in any sense of the word.
So, for now, I know I need to allow myself to think and process the reality of this experience coming to an end. And I really need to realize that it is not over yet. I am still going to Russia, Germany, the Netherlands, and France (maybe the Czech Republic too...that's to be decided tonight). I still have amazing friends to spend my days with and so much more to learn. And it doesn't have to be over if I don't want it to be; Europe is not disappearing from the Earth nor from my life.
I have some new goals from of the this and I can feel them growing in my heart. I was thinking I would go further in my studies even before Europe but now I am thinking maybe I can do my Master's in Europe. Just think, two or three years back in Europe. It would be a dream come true! And to be honest, I was never sure about what my degrees or what my life would look like after this. My time here in Europe was a huge goal and I cannot believe I achieved it already.
So I have to go on and leave my life open to the changes that are occurring. It's not up to me, I still believe that. I was given a heart for the world, for certain places, people and things. And I have full faith that at the end of this life I will be so happy. I just need to keep my eyes, heart and mind open. And I have to think more positively and understand the power that I have to make changes in my own life. Dreams are incredibly powerful things. Dreams are what got me here in the first place.
Some pictures from a Lithuanian Spring:
Hill of Witches in Nida:
The Curonian Spit, Nida:
Raining lots here!
A fake, surprise Birthday party:
A visitor from afar!
And finally went to Riga!!
Our wonderful group for the Day! Agnese and Ingrida did a great job with showing Miguel and I around:
So if you have read this far, you are very dedicated and I thank you so much for reading! Until next time my dear friends! All my love....
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