Just some thoughts as I write a few post-cards home right now and creep away on old Facebook friends... did I really have any clue, say 12 months ago, that I would be anywhere near this place? Did I know how much absolutely everything would change? I really had no clue...and it almost makes me laugh now. I had no clue that I would come to Lithuania; to a completely new culture, environment, and life; meet some of the closest people I have ever meant, have some the most interesting stories become reality and have my whole life changed. I had no idea that my eyes would be opened wider than they have ever been and I would see a whole new side to the world. This is a dramatic change; it has shaken everything I have ever known to the core. And now I feel like my life is waiting to be exhaled. Now I have found the air, I have sucked it all in and I am on the cusp of breathing it all out.
I am sadden by some of the consequences that have come in tow with this change I have experienced. Some of my friends and even family I haven't talked to...maybe I don't even know who they really are anymore. And I still cannot tell you how much I have changed as a person. It's a very strange situation I feel like I have landed myself in... and yet, I will always know that this has been a truly once in a lifetime experience for me. Tons of things have changed and I may have lost a lot of connection from it. But I think it has become something truly extraordinary for me.
And more thoughts...
How much do we really ever know about each other? How can we ever possibly piece together the lives we had before we encountered each other? How do we know every word that was muttered to that person, every street that they have walked, every story that they have know? There is no possible way to gather it all together. Do we ever really know a person fully? Sometimes I wish I could know exactly what all my friends are going through, or what their histories really looked like. But I will never know because I do not have their eyes and there is so much that I have never seen of their lives.
Just things that I have been thinking about today....
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